I recently took a vacation to West Palm Beach Florida unexpectedly. Family members who were scheduled to go on the trip suddenly found themselves unable to and offered us the chance to stay in their condo. We planned for a week and off we went.
Once in Florida, we went to pick up our rental car and were treated to an upgrade. We found ourselves in a brand new Mustang convertible for the entire week! It wasn’t difficult to adapt to buzzing around Florida and seeing new places while sipping on my Dunkin Donuts iced coffee. (the butter pecan is heaven) I found myself happily surprised that I could actually get a tan sitting in the car. Honestly, it began as a sunburn. I had a seatbelt strap mark across my chest for a few days as a reminder that I hadn’t put sunscreen on right away. I guess a traveler from Minnesota who has come from gray skies and cool temperatures can find herself a little too accommodating to the sun. After much sunscreen, it was a faded reminder of rookie mistake.
We were able to experience beautiful coast drives, walks along shorelines and fresh seafood. I found myself surprised by the fact that I didn’t step foot into a Walmart until we were almost ready to come back home. For me, that is a true vacation. Getting away for awhile can be an eye opening experience. There are no schedules to abide by, you can read incessantly by the pool or the ocean and speak to someone from another part of the country. It re-sets the thinking to expand and allow a person to see that there is a lot going on outside her backyard existence. It gives you a chance to think, breathe and go to Sonic at all hours of the night for their half price specials and not feel a shred of guilt about it. You are on VACATION!
Once I returned home, the routine started up again, and I found myself on the phone struggling with a problem. I tried not to let it bother me, but it did. All week it would pop up in my mind, and I would speak over the situation words of peace. On Saturday, I decided to go on a long walk. It gave me a chance to think about what was going on without distraction. I had texted a friend of mine earlier in the day regarding the issue, and he said: “What are you not letting go of?” As I walked along, I pondered that. Why was I struggling so hard with this? What was causing me anxiety and loss of sleep or waking up with my heart pounding? The conclusion was that I felt alone. I felt like I had to fight the fight on my own. Without going into too much detail about the problem, I was being transferred from one agency to another by phone. Being put on hold. Being disconnected. No answers forthcoming. Instead of hanging up, I held on. Sadly, I wasted an hour on hold at one point and then a recorded message came on that let me know that ‘all our lines are busy, please call back later.’ Dial tone.
I began to think about the condo we had just stayed in and the thought went through my mind, “While you were on vacation, wouldn’t it have been ridiculous to do the job of the hired help?” I laughed at the thought of being on vacation and making everyone’s beds, vacuuming the hallways and taking out the trash. It wasn’t necessary for me to do so because the condo had maids and staff to meet our every whim. Many times while there I was asked how our stay was and if there was anything we needed. We would come back from a long day out exploring and find fresh towels and emptied trash containers. It was simply done for us. The help was there to do it for us. It was supplied.
So, what would happen if I began to allow the help of heaven? I believe in divine help and that God has already supplied everything I need. Why then must I fight to get it? I don’t believe I have read anywhere that God expects me to come up with a plan or fight to get something. In fact, the Bible says He has a good plan all worked out for us and He wants to meet our needs. We have the Holy Spirit who is to guide us and divine workers to carry out the orders. I realized that I have been trying to accomplish my life by myself and not fully allowing the hands of heaven to assist me.
I have been under the false idea that I am to muddle my way through and if problems arise, I have to solve them without help. I believe this thinking comes from a divorce I experienced a number of years ago and was left in charge as a single mom of two and a household to run. Also, I was raised to be a problem solver. It was expected as I was growing up to be ‘independent’ and do things for myself. That is a good character quality to have unless it cripples a person from asking for help.
As I strolled through my neighborhood, I lifted my concern to heaven and told God I needed help. By the time my walk ended, I felt lighter and less concerned about the outcome of my unresolved situation. It really is much easier to get through something and maintain peace. As I have come to find out, the calm on the inside of me makes my outward circumstances line up quickly.
The next morning, I asked for a sign that heaven was working on my behalf. I prayed and asked that angels be sent out to do the behind the scenes work so that my issue could be resolved quickly. Shortly after, I was walking through a parking lot (Yes, Walmart) and I saw a heart shaped bracelet laying at my feet. How quickly the divine responds when we ask for a boost of confidence.